Song of the Day: Heartbreaker by Led Zeppelin
I decided to read back on my old posts, the ones I wrote some time during the middle of 2013. I noticed a huge change in my tone since my first post. I remember writing that around the time after I was kicked out of the hospital for being “noncompliant”. They weren’t lying or exaggerating at all. I was a pretty terrible patient. One time I actually threw a chair. It wasn’t the best of times for me.
When I began this blog I was not only severely depressed but I was also pretty uncomfortable writing to a community that I wasn’t too familiar with. But as time went by, I found that writing really helped me through the recovery process. I don’t have a lot of people to speak to about all these things so writing all of my thoughts out, actually seeing my thought process, was helpful. When I read my own thoughts to myself, I managed to learn much more. Sometimes I just feel like a complete fool for thinking about it in the first place.
I wrote pretty inconsistent back then with my writing but since the New Year I decided to write every single day, no matter how insignificant my musings seemed. By the way, I love the word “musing”. If you’re just starting out, I highly recommend that you write as much as you can. Write in a personal journal if you would rather do that. I did and still do because I like practicing my penmanship.
These days I noticed that my tone is much more lighthearted. Well, sometimes there are those days when I feel a little down but it’s nothing compared to my writings from last year. The more I write here, the more I open up to the community and the more I get to showcase my true self. My true self is… probably not what you’d expect but we’ll see.
Well, I must go and roll around the floor with my dogs because it’s fun and they’re giant so I don’t have to worry about suffocating them.