Have you ever heard of the studies involving depression that arises from social media sites? It makes sense. My mood tends to fall a little whenever I see my friends’ notable achievements or seemingly wonderful life. Then I become so preoccupied with what I don’t have that I forget what I do have. I’m happy for anyone who achieves anything at all but I end up unintentionally comparing my own life to theirs. I’m going to deflect the blame to human nature.
Lately I’ve been spending time, too much of it might I add, on social media sites. I recently began using Facebook and Skype again, and I opened up an Instagram account. Why? I don’t know, curiosity?
As you know, social media sites can be quite addicting and so I’ve fallen victim to them once again. I don’t update much on what I do but I do like to “stalk” the accounts of my friends, most of whom I don’t speak to as much as I would like. I’ve known most of these people since I was twelve and I constantly wonder what they’re up to. I get nostalgic about the way everything used to be, and then end up crying about it.
It’s the same pattern over and over again.
There was a period of time when I deleted my tumblr, instagram, and facebook; and stopped using skype entirely. I would speak to a few of my close friends from time to time but I was basically isolated from everyone and… I actually felt a lot better. It was like completely disconnected from my past and let it all go. There was a sense of relief that overcame me and I was actually happy.
I’m one of those people who have a copious amount of trouble letting go. I tend to hang on to every little thing, which I know isn’t good, but it’s just how I am. So it was a huge deal for me to let go, even if it was just for a few months.
I want to feel that relief again. And in that effort, I promised myself that I would slowly wean myself away from social media sites, especially facebook. I won’t give it up completely, as I still want to keep in touch with some people; I’ll just limit my time.
I’m starting off with limiting my time to just one hour a day. I’ve been using StayFocusd since my university days and it works well. To change the setting I’m forced to type word for word the lyrics to “What Makes You Beautiful” by One Direction. Hey, I did it like three years ago.
And so, I’m going to disconnect for a little while.