I’ve been in a listen-to-sad-songs-in-the-dark-and-cry kind of mood lately and so I mustered up the energy to take my two-year-old sister to her first gymnastics class.
For that whole hour I had so much fun. Since Keira, my sister, would only do the exercises if I did them, I had to go through the several obstacle courses a few times. Mind you; this is a class for two-year-olds and I looked like a complete fool crawling through the two feet diameter tunnels. I’m really small at 5’2″ so I never really have problems fitting into children’s rides and play areas.
The rest of the toddlers there had their parents and they just thought I was the most hilarious thing ever because it seemed like I was one of the kids. Well, I mean, I only have three feet on them so… By the way, I was the only one who slipped and fell. The entire place was covered in foam mats and I just happened to fall on the concrete. I’m really not the most coordinate person.
Like I said, I’ve been a bit depressed lately and all I’ve been doing is sleeping to sad songs. I know that just perpetuates depression but I can’t help it, so I really needed this childhood experience. Don’t you remember when you were a young child? You had absolutely no worries… In reality I do have a lot resting on my shoulders but when my inner child manifests, the worries disappear because it’s like I’m an actual child again.
It’s why I love swing sets, and slides, and rolling down hills, and stuffed animals, and watching cartoons, and etc etc. It’s why I think it’s okay to allow my inner child to take over every once in a while. I don’t even care if there are others around. I will belt out that Backstreet Boys song if I hear it or laugh at Disney Channel shows. Too many people, especially ones who are around my age, are so focused on their image and get lost in the person they want others to see them as.
I admit that there was a period of time when I was terrified of being thought of as ‘lame’ or ‘a loser’ but as I grew older I found out that it was okay. Who are they to judge who’s ‘normal’? That’s so subjective. To me, my friends and I are ‘normal’; to others, we’re ‘nerds’. But hey, we have fun in any and all situations because we are who we are.
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